10.27.2009

29 Homes in 21 Cities (revised)

See the blog for an illumination


We worked it out
I come from Eskilstuna where the kiosks come up
I come from Alexandria where the asphalt was invented
I come from Teaneck with its sharks in quicksand
I come from Feasterville so you have no upper upper hand
We called it out
I come from Bergenfield where the floods did come
I come from New Milford where no children smile
I come from River Vale with its bushes of baseball bats
I come from Doylestown so you best not relax
We tore it up
I come from Eden Prairie where the warmth is palatable
I come from Eden Prairie again where the earth is flat
I come from Brea with its music 'til four in the morning
I come from Minneapolis where swift lifts make for soft pulls

We made it shiny
I come from Pomona so all your threats are empty, empty
I come from Pasadena where the ping-pong is dusty
I come from Monrovia where hearts are down and dusky
I come from Newbury Park with its two exits
We pulled it back
I come from North Hollywood so I know about coming from
I come from North Hollywood again and its ski lodge aspirations
I come from Ventura where the U-Hauls skulk
I come from Amherst where on the twelfth day we rise
We cleaned clocks
I come from Eden Prairie again so you best believe I linger
I come from Eden Prairie again with its misreading of the future
I come from Minneapolis again with its disappeared
I come from Minneapolis again with its so you never stood a chance

We pushed it out
I come from Minneapolis again with its owned not rented
I come from Santa Monica where nothing bad ever happens
I come from Santa Monica again where the rain is unending
I come from Hollywood where the helicopters haunt me
We rattle easily, no
I come from Long Beach so you know why we do what we do when we do what we do
We broke it down
We made a run
We wait it out
We have it all
I...

Written October 5 and October 27, 2009

Devil's Treason

I'm nothing if not timely
With my timeless salutations
That get you right there
And split your brain halves, like yolk from white
Uneven, odd colors, and is that a fable book?
That you hold in your hand like a cannibal's meal hand?
Unknown resister to reason
Guess what, that's the devil's very treason

October 27, 2009

10.25.2009

Unincorporated East Lost Angeles #3











She talks about that one dead end
As if it's hallowed ground and not the edge of town
Where the city stops so the pavement stops
She thinks there's buried bones there
She may be right but no one's digging any time soon

The stories she tells
As the excitement swells and sweats
They're as true as a shy man's wedding vows
All bent toward great heights
Invented at the moment
Aroused and uninvited
She calls cameras
She stalls camera crews
The regional news
Gives her a segment

I think of that parking lot
As hope unearthed
Dashed and cursed
Speed bumps 'til the fence and forest
So dense. So warm. So porous
I wish we had more space and time
Fewer power cords, fewer shoes
Cotten swabs and rotten jobs
A trade off, one and not the other
Blood angel, two mothers
No fathers, a galaxy of pixelations
October 23, 2009

10.09.2009

Double Mono

Stretch your back
Kick your shoes off
There's a soft spot
On the floor, over there, in the low blocks
Evermore, tide to shore, on the black rocks

He calls her absurd, a martyr's marking time
Scrolling up and down and all around the quiet town
The one with the half-good reputation
For handsome girls with shadow puppet shapes

The furnaces are big and brown
The steam engines head uphill, crosstown
Halos don't appear because halos don't exist
Fiery tempers make the feeblest fists

Close your eyes
Hold your hands out
Fold the flaps in
Now your hands go back out
You never closed your eyes

October 9, 2009

10.05.2009

28 Homes in 21 Cities

We worked it out
I come from Eskilstuna where the kiosks come up
I come from Alexandria where the asphalt was invented
I come from Teaneck with its sharks in quicksand
I come from Feasterville so you have no upper upper hand

We called it out
I come from Bergenfield where the floods did come
I come from New Milford where no children smile
I come from River Vale with its bushes of baseball bats
I come from Doylestown so you best not relax

We tore it up
I come from Eden Prairie where the warmth is palatable
I come from Brea with its music 'til four in the morning
I come from Minneapolis where swift lifts make for soft pulls
I come from Pomona so all your threats are empty, empty, empty

We made it shiny
I come from Pasadena where the blood boils
I come from Monrovia where the hillside strangles
I come from Newbury Park with its two exits
I come from North Hollywood so I know about coming from

We pulled it back
I come from North Hollywood again with its two stories up
I come from Ventura where the U-Hauls skulk
I come from Amherst where on the twelfth day we rise
I come from Eden Prairie again so you best believe I linger

We cleaned clocks
I come from Eden Prairie again with its misreading of the future
I come from Minneapolis again with its disappeared
I come from Minneapolis again with its coffeehouse crushes
I come from Minneapolis again so you never stood a chance

We pushed it out
I come from Santa Monica where nothing bad ever happens
I come from Santa Monica again where the rain is unending
I come from Hollywood where the helicopters haunt me
I come from Long Beach so you know why we do what we do when we do what we do

We broke it down
I...

We made a run
I...

We wait it out
I...

We have it all
I...

Written October 5, 2009

Day 16,096

I'm not done trying to save my self
To save face, to get brave, to limit my range of motion
From high hills to blue ocean
In between, I'm stark and lean

I've been told I'm old and mean and sweet and young
But there are complicated locks and handles
That fool even the trickiest vandals
Those floating legends we held in high esteem
She's the color of a candida dream
He's keeps honor in his extra-large sleeve
Neither knows it but they're helpless in the sun

I'm so so sick of trying to save my soul
Selling out, moving out; besides it's ill-defined
Soul is body, mind is soul
Mind and body are one, I'm fat and well-fed

I was reminded yet again of my tendencies and tricks
Selfish acts that look selfless to the masses
Who cover their eyes with knockoff sunglasses
I'm all set to tell the truth if it's what you need
Truth is, the truth is what we believe we believe
Love is what we think of when we kneel down and grieve
Simple steps lead to complicated kicks

It's not over, this saving of myself
It comes down to quiet sleep and slip-sliding laughter
From the one-way one-lane in the seaside city of today
To a long long time ago, the four-lane
Leisure ride through Pennsylvania Dutch, just rolling along

Written October 5, 2009

9.27.2009

Seven Songs

Here are seven poems I discovered tonight in an old abandoned Word document called “Songs.”


The House

Pamela says that’s cheating

You can’t be closing your eyes

You’ve got to go inside with your eyes real wide

If you want to say you’ve been here


Richie says he’s sorry

For coming here with a camera

Some things are sacred when your soul is naked

This is no documentary


The house is old and sits behind

The Burger King on 409

It’s been for sale since ‘81

So you know that’s been a long time


Pamela says she hears them

Shuffling in the attic

Those can’t be bats and those can’t be rats

It’s the sound of retribution


Richie says let’s leave here

While we still can walk away

We’re much too young, let’s turn and run

Before it gets too late


I Feel Like Dancing

The cartilage has a history

The candied yam does too

The death of reason took too long

Now I feel like dancing

But oh the places I’ve seen

Days I wore nothing but green

Singing sea shanties with aliens and DJs

Those were the times, the rooftop days


The calendar skipped two nights

Tomorrow should be Monday

Negotiations feel like labor

Now I feel like dancing

But ooh the mornings I’ve slept

While women coughed and children wept

Mopping the floors of fleas and flowers

Those were the times, the rooftop hours


But it was only a minute

Or two or maybe ten

The man told a story of Steven Spielberg

And then we went downstairs

Hollywood in our hairs


The cookie jar is cracking

The chocolate chips have eyes

The bride wore blue with yellow shoes

Now I feel like dancing

But dang the songs I have ruined

With piano keys dead and untuned

Children screamed and plugged their ears

Those were the times, the rooftop years


I have nothing left

That’s the way I want it


Double Gold

There is a difference

It was explained to me

Between the gold

And the platinum

And the double platinum


There are numbers

Weights and measures

There is no double gold

I read every figure

I seek every refuge

As the car rolls out of Philadelphia

Into the chalky hills of the county

Where people grow art in backyard sheds

That smell like lime and pretzels


There is a difference

It was explained to me

Between the gold

And the platinum

And the double platinum

There are fives

Ones and zeroes

There is no double gold


The strobe is set to twinkle

The night is winding down

The children scream for Lionel Richie

“Still” and “Truly” and it’s time to go

I find my father’s Volvo

His first one, the red one, the best one


There is a difference

It was explained to me

Between the gold

And the platinum

And the double platinum

Domestic sales

And giant gorillas

There is no double gold

(There is no double gold

Not anymore, no double gold)


I read every page

I watch every program

As my sister turns brown in the August sun

And my mother makes fences with strings

And my father works in the steel building

Near the restaurant that’s also a train


There is a difference

It was explained to me

Between the gold

And the platinum

And the double platinum

Domestic songs

About giant gorillas

There is no double gold


Two Bracelets

Two bracelets

One more than one

You’d expect one

You’d believe one

But two bracelets

Is like three eyes

A big surprise


One pure titanium

One purer black

We grasp what’s alone

We follow it home

But two bracelets

We leave on the street

Beneath our broken feet


She threw herself a birthday party

And told us what to bring

Though she lost her job for loving

The party eased the sting

We brought her songs of trouble

Songs of rage, songs of joy

We brought her songs for sleeping

She slept until she couldn’t anymore


Two bracelets

On one hand

On the other, none

Skin and scars

Found impressions

See two bracelets

Believe nothing

But a big surprise


One from childhood

One from last year

She calls one beautiful

But not the other one

One can be beautiful

But two bracelets

We cover our eyes

And run for the light


In the Low Light

He asked that they leave the door

To his dressing room closed, locked

From the outside

He asked for a bucket of ice

And a bottle of wine no younger

Than 1979

The last year he was famous enough

To make such demands

In bigger towns than this one

He asked that they keep the lights low

These haven’t been his best days

Not even close


He asked for a tray of vegetables

And a working sink to rinse them

Just in case

His enemies poisoned him

The way he deserved

In better days than these


He remembered to thank the crowd

And the man from the radio station

And the girl who brought him dinner

But not his wife who left him

Or his manager in jail

Or his record label

If he had one, he didn’t have one

Then he played

Then he sang

About horses and winter and wives who’ve left him

In the low light


He asked that they let the fans in

After the show, with flowers and gifts

And phone numbers

Written on saved ticket stubs

From the last time he came

To this town

When he filled up the amphitheater

On a Tuesday night in the rain


He asked again to let the fans in

But the manager shrugged and the girl

Who brought him dinner

Said let’s see what I can do

She came back with a bottle of wine

1981

Last year was a bad year she said

But tomorrow’s another night


Canadia

We’ve come from Canadia

With shovels and diaries

With “no ma’am” and “yes please”

We’ve come to work the land

Build the homes and plant the trees

Write our little histories


We’ve come with grand ideas

I imagine over there

A room of red, bright and spare

We’ve come to help you live

Silver platter carts on wheels

Fancy meats in fleshy sleeves


Don’t send us back to Canadia

We won’t go back to Canadia

We promise we’ll be good to you

We have English names, just like you

And some of us have killed, like you

Don’t send us back to Canadia

We won’t go back to Canadia


We’ve come from Canadia

With children and white horses

With men in hats and armed forces

We’ve come to settle here

We’ll build big houses on hills

Bilingual utility bills


We’ve come with grand ideas

I imagine there will be

A festive feast of soil and sea

We’ve come to save your soul

Mounds of dough with sugared beans

Jellyfish and seaweed green


Don’t send us back to Canadia

We won’t go back to Canadia

We promise we’ll be good to you

We’ve left the French ones, just like you

And some of us have killed, like you

Don’t send us back to Canadia

We won’t go back to Canadia



Limbs

If arms were merely limbs

We wouldn’t love with them

But we do and where were you

When half the world was half awake?

Sleeping, with your left arm holding your right


If skin were merely skin

We wouldn’t feel a thing

But we do and how can you

Pretend it doesn’t hurt when it does?

As we drive by the house at the top of the hill

With its scales and its warts and its sevens and its twos

With its overgrown grass and its elevator shoes

The Santa Ana Winds are high, it’ll be a scream

You’ve got some matches and I’ve got gasoline


But wait

I’ll slow down

I think the thing to do

Is take a breath or two


And drive by the house at the top of the hill

If we don’t look back it’s invisible

If we look ahead it’s dead

But ifs are ten cents for ten

And we gave all our change to the fountain at the mall

So let’s turn this car around and go in for the kill

Let’s drive to the house at the top of the hill

With its pus and its blood and its sixes and its nines

With its dead orange lilies and its trailer park vines

The neighborhood’s deserted and we’ve got the time

Let’s not kill for his sins. Let’s kill for his crime


If arms were merely limbs

We wouldn’t love with them

But we do and where were you

When half the world was half awake?

Sleeping, with your left arm holding your right


(all poems written around the turn of the century - 1999-2001 in Minneapolis, MN)